Ask the Therapist
BPD and Feeling Suicidal
I am having so much trouble right now ....
I know that BPD are a pain in the ass .... Each time that I go to class, I listened
so many things about Borderline (.... none of the teachers would like them as a clients... and other things) ... and also the things that the psychiatrist told me ....
Right now, it is very hard for me. Supposedly I have a therapist in the counseling
center at the university (I cannot afford to pay anything, I can hardly have money to survive)
I know that she is not happy seeing me. My previous therapist left the counseling center last school year (now he is back)....I am having so much trouble ....
I know that the problem is myself ... You know all the things that I heard in classes ....
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I cannot continue writing more this is ....
I am suicidal ....
I cannot talk with my therapist
Going to the hospital will not help, I have been there before. They let me go and
say talk to your therapist ....
I know that I am the worst ... that I have problems with boundaries and other things ....
things got very painful for me with my previous therapist .... I know that this is
my dysfunction ....
I am feeling very bad
I am very suicidal
It would be irresponsible of me to try to help you given the state of mind that you are describing. The most important thing for you to do is seek immediate help for your suicidal feelings. You must talk to your therapist. If you can't, take yourself to the ER or have a friend take you and INSIST that you be admitted overnight for observation. Are you taking medication? If you are, go to your psychiatrist and explain how you feel. If not, go to your GP and tell him/her how you are feeling and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist.
BPDs often feel suicidal, but those feelings are not something to ignore. You need to ask for help.
