My name is Kayla and I am a 19 year old female.

My actual diagnosis is bipolar disorder. I have had that diagnosis since grade ten. However I have been misdiagnosed several times starting out when I was in grade eight. I was first diagnosed as having depression and put on some anti-depressants that made everything worse. So my grandparents (whom I live with) found a psychiatrist and he diagnosed me as having bipolar disorder and put me on lithium and some other meds. Things seemed to be going fine until I got depressed and got put on another antidepressant and ended up in the hospital because I tried to kill myself. I got my meds all straightened out and everything but I almost didn't pass grade ten because I had to go to the hospital so many times for both mania and depression. Then comes my grade 11 year I got severally depressed, attempted suicide again, and got put back into the hospital. However this time I got court ordered to be sent to a long term place. At this long term place the psychiatrist there said I had depression with general anxiety disorder. So needless to say they didn't help me out too much. This is where people started to really pick up on my eating problems...every time I would get weighed (once a month) I would have lost at least 5 pounds. Now though my regular psychiatrist, and counselor are monitoring me very closely. My original main diagnosis has gone back to bipolar disorder, and they are helping get over signs I am displaying of PTSD. I also tend to use cutting as a way to get out all the hurt and pain I sometimes feel inside, although I know it is not a healthy way to express my feeling I am trying to overcome that, I do have and try my best to use the coping skills I have learned

My email is: schumacherincap@msn.com