My name is ANHJI and I am a 31 year old Female.
I HAVE BIPOLAR ,BPD, ANXIETY AND SCHIZOPHRENIA. MY GREAT GRAND FATHER
AND GRANDMOTHER AND FATHER HAVE THE SAME. ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO MY MOTHER
PASSED AWAY FROM CANCER. I WAS PREGNANT THEN ,I WAS 8 MONTHS WHEN I GOT
OFF THE BATHROOM FLOOR AND SAID THAT IS ENOUGH TO MY DRUG ABUSE. EVER
SINCE I HAVE BEEN HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME COPING IN LIFE. MY UPS WERE SO
HIGH AND WONDERFUL. BUT MY LOWS WERE SO DARK. MY ANGER WAS SO VIOLENT,
PEOPLE ALWAYS TOLD ME "YOU NEED HELP". YOU KNOW MY RESPONSE. I
HAVE 3 BOYS 10,5,3 I HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHO IS THE FATHER OF 2 CHILDREN. IT
HAS BEEN 3 YEARS OF PAIN FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. WHAT DID IT WAS MY
LAST FIGHT WITH MY BOYFRIEND I HAD A RAGE OF FIRE AND I COULDN'T STOP IT
WENT ON AND ON ,THEN I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR THE NEXT DAY AND SAID I NEED
HELP NOW. MY MOTHER HAD ME WHEN SHE WAS 17 AND SHE WAS NOT MARRIED TO MY
DAD. LATER MY MOM LEFT HIM AND MARRIED MY STEP DAD AND HAD 2 CHILDREN, I
WAS ALWAYS DIFFERENT. I FELT LESS LOVE. MY DAD WAS ON MANY DRUGS AND HE
WAS SCARY WHEN HE HAD HIS MOOD SWINGS. WHEN MY FATHER CAME DOWN OFF HIS
HIGH ,LOOK OUT DON'T GET IN HIS WAY. HE DID THINGS LIKE IN A HORROR MOVIE. ANYWAYS
I COULD TELL YOU MORE LATER. I HAVE BEEN THERE AND SEEN EVERYTHING
BELIEVE IT I DID IT AND I HAVE SEEN MY DAD OR GRANDMOTHER DO IT. IF YOU
NEED TO TALK SO DO I.
